Savannah Chrisley Says She’s “So Numb” After Ex Nic Kerdiles’ Death

Savannah Chrisley still can’t believe Nic Kerdiles is gone.

One day after the former pro hockey player was killed in a motorcycle crash in Nashville, the Chrisley Knows Best alum mourned the loss of her ex-fiancé in a lengthy and emotional tribute.

“Nicolas Henry Stephan Kerdiles…I wish you could see all the people that are showing up and loving you right now,” Savannah wrote on Instagram Sept. 24. “I can see that grin of yours so clearly. You left such a mark on this world and it’s so empty without you. It is impossible to believe that you are really gone. I am not sure how to even absorb that news, I don’t know how to react. I am so sad and so numb. I don’t want to believe it.”

The 26-year-old went on to reflect on their three years together as a couple before they called off their engagement in 2020.

“I keep texting your phone and just hope you respond,” Savannah continued. “I had just turned 20 when we met, you were only 23, we were just kids learning about life and love and trying to make it all work. So much of our relationship was played out on the public stage, that is one of the hardest parts of growing up in the public eye. People have this tendency to judge things by their best and worst moments. We look at things and define them by what happens at both ends of the spectrum. We had some really great, bright moments, and we had some really hard ones, but the part of our relationship I will hold on to will always be the moments in the middle.”